Even though my previous blog post was short, a fair share of work went into the few sentences I published. When I wrote my first post it became clear to me that I have many underlying issues in every aspect and area of my life, and I decided my next post should be about my interest and personal motive in trading (stocks). I want to explore all issues, and it felt natural to start with stocks since it’s my newest endeavour.
My other areas in life is me as a photographer, video maker, music and sound creator, me as an artist, a creative person in general, and writer I guess, and as mentioned; a trader. It’s way to much, I know. Other areas of significant includes me as a father, me as an ex and co-parent, and also the future and new me. I have experienced a mental awakening that changed my life completely, but more on that another day. Me as a trader is the least complicated part in my life, or so I thought, and it still resulted in huge fuckery when I tried to write about it. I fear what I might find when I dig deeper in the other areas. Yet, my interest in human mental health and my curiosity seduces me onto these expeditions.
Today I continued to explore, through blog post writing, what got me into trading. That post turned into 700 words about my previous relationship before I copied what I had, pasted into a document (the same document as all the elaborations from my previous post is), and started writing this post instead. Through writing about this I suddenly felt I had discovered the way towards realising one of my bigger projects. A book.
Everyone has a life story, and if communicated properly I feel my story can be of help, comfort, inspiration, and more. More than 700 words about a previous love life before the word trading was even mentioned, in a brief blog post about trading, did not feel like the correct way to communicate what I wanted to. This got me thinking.. “Is my blog a personal archive? A place I can store, and share, stories, reflections, ideas, etc, while I slowly work towards my book?” The idea of writing a book is far from new, but the process towards one has been unclear. Thus the birth of this post. A reminder to myself that I maybe have found the way to work towards my book.
This became clear to me as I was writing about what lead me to trading. A blog post should be short, and precise. A book gives room for more story. I guess you can say a story leading up to a story is expected from a book, but it might be redundant in a blog. If this had been a blog about trading, the story about how I got into trading is welcomed post. But without a clear definition as to what this blog is, writing about what got me into trading became messy. However, now I feel the purpose of my blog is defined, something it wasn’t before I started writing this post.